If you are never alone, you cannot know yourself. And if you do not know yourself, you will begin to feel the void.
But the void does not exist. A vast world lies hidden in our soul, waiting to be discovered. There it is, with all its strength intact, but it is so new and so powerful that we are afraid to acknowledge its existence.
It is almost 6 months since the breakup. I have moved on but I still am not used to the new routine.
When you are in a relationship, believe it or not, you develop a certain habit that sometimes turn into addiction. And when the time comes that you need to break it off your system, you experience ‘withdrawal syndrome’.
In the medical sense, Withdrawal Syndrome is manifested when there is an abrupt cessation of an addiction (substance addiction). You may feel depressed, irritable, and isolated.
I was emotionally devastated. I felt depressed. Two months after the breakup, I stopped the ‘crying-stage’ but up to now, I am still not used being alone again.
Paulo Coelho’s book, The Manuscript Found in Accra struck me. It made me realize the void I am feeling is just on my mind. I have to choose to be happy.
It’s a good thing that I am enjoying my new job. It gives me something to look forward to everyday. But then again, I need to make myself open to the world and enjoy the moment. I think it’s about time…